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Faizal Fernandez
16 October 1988
yamakasi_sittingbull@hotmail.com
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22 June 2010
Assalamualaikum
Hi.
I am just disappointed. I think my heart feels like it just dropped.
I can't believe that I let what happened 2 days ago affect how I think.
Like how I keep thinking about you.
I was not even paying attention to myself or the road, for the matter that i was riding.
You just kept beating my spirit and keeping me down.
I knew I should have just left way earlier and not see what I saw.
God just has HIS ways in showing me 'this' kind of thinglike how he showed my dad.
Gosh. This 'ability' sucks in a way. But I guess good in its own ways.
Ive waited the whole day for you because I wanted to have lunch with you.
I waited and didn't eat anything the whole day because I wanted to have lunch with you.
But you didn't even care.
Oh Mr.S. why did you have to stop me and make me chat with you.
Its been only a full week since im officially jobless.
But its really taxing my mind.
With the above mentioned emotional and spiritual breakdown,
its not helping with rejections from companies either.
I hope I get a job by the end of july.
Today was a bad day.
From the aftermath and ripple action of sunday's trauma
had already made me unwanting to start with the day and work.
The summon later made it worst.
That was so unnecessary.
Thanks.
This post is so depressing.
I miss 20th February 2010.
to you: GOod luck with your new one/s
Assalamualaikum
Hi.
I am just disappointed. I think my heart feels like it just dropped.
I can't believe that I let what happened 2 days ago affect how I think.
Like how I keep thinking about you.
I was not even paying attention to myself or the road, for the matter that i was riding.
You just kept beating my spirit and keeping me down.
I knew I should have just left way earlier and not see what I saw.
God just has HIS ways in showing me 'this' kind of thinglike how he showed my dad.
Gosh. This 'ability' sucks in a way. But I guess good in its own ways.
Ive waited the whole day for you because I wanted to have lunch with you.
I waited and didn't eat anything the whole day because I wanted to have lunch with you.
But you didn't even care.
Oh Mr.S. why did you have to stop me and make me chat with you.
Its been only a full week since im officially jobless.
But its really taxing my mind.
With the above mentioned emotional and spiritual breakdown,
its not helping with rejections from companies either.
I hope I get a job by the end of july.
Today was a bad day.
From the aftermath and ripple action of sunday's trauma
had already made me unwanting to start with the day and work.
The summon later made it worst.
That was so unnecessary.
Thanks.
This post is so depressing.
I miss 20th February 2010.
to you: GOod luck with your new one/s
Assalamualaikum
Faizal Fernandez
9:00 PM
13 June 2010
Assalamualaikum
Hello.
I am going to officially end my national service on tuesday.
I have not found a job.
In fact, I have not started looking for any jobs other than one and only job offered at exxonmobil.
And I have just been rejected.
And I am damn sad.
I am going to do more bumming.
Hopefully I will be accepted in some company and start earning and not refill my resources.
Its going to be hard bumming at home without much resources.
If not, I can go shop till I drop. Or even go travelling for awhile.
HAAAIYAAAAA!!
COME ON JOB. COME TO MEEEE.
I think that kids these days are too pampered.
They get too good of a life.
They get mostly whatever they want.
and take things for granted.
aiyah.what talking me.
my mom is jobless now.so am i.
what to do what to do.
i am soooooooo lazy.
gahhhh!
ok bye
Hello.
I am going to officially end my national service on tuesday.
I have not found a job.
In fact, I have not started looking for any jobs other than one and only job offered at exxonmobil.
And I have just been rejected.
And I am damn sad.
I am going to do more bumming.
Hopefully I will be accepted in some company and start earning and not refill my resources.
Its going to be hard bumming at home without much resources.
If not, I can go shop till I drop. Or even go travelling for awhile.
HAAAIYAAAAA!!
COME ON JOB. COME TO MEEEE.
I think that kids these days are too pampered.
They get too good of a life.
They get mostly whatever they want.
and take things for granted.
aiyah.what talking me.
my mom is jobless now.so am i.
what to do what to do.
i am soooooooo lazy.
gahhhh!
ok bye
Faizal Fernandez
2:36 PM
02 June 2010
Assalamualaikum
Hey. I went to my grannys' just now.
Its good that I visit her. Sometimes I just enjoy the peace and quiet in that home when nobody's at home.
And when I listen to her 'nags' and 'advices'(ok maybe i dunt really listen)
but the point is, I get the opportunity to remind myself of my responsibilities in life
and in a way, humble myself and thus reminds myself not to take things for granted.
Its light reigniting the spark and supplying that extra fuel to make the fire even bigger.
Well.at least its applicable for my family aspect of life.
Sometimes, I get really confused.
I dunt expect to get anything nice in return,or even anything nice.
But to get negative remarks is like a knife through the heart.
It has always been that way I guess.
I may be naggy and B*****...
but thats because
I am only concerned of you
and yet...
..........*sighs*
Its okay. treat me however u like.
Be it mean, or sarcastic or disrespectful.
What matters the most is my sincerity.
Dear Allah, cleanse my heart of any filth intentions and purify it with sincerity
Give me the strength to overcome negativities with the best of solutions
And ease my heartache and bless me with happiness.
For YOU are the Almighty.
Ameen.
I will just be there if you need me :D
Go and eat your medicine lah you.
Goodnites everyone.
Hey. I went to my grannys' just now.
Its good that I visit her. Sometimes I just enjoy the peace and quiet in that home when nobody's at home.
And when I listen to her 'nags' and 'advices'(ok maybe i dunt really listen)
but the point is, I get the opportunity to remind myself of my responsibilities in life
and in a way, humble myself and thus reminds myself not to take things for granted.
Its light reigniting the spark and supplying that extra fuel to make the fire even bigger.
Well.at least its applicable for my family aspect of life.
Sometimes, I get really confused.
I dunt expect to get anything nice in return,or even anything nice.
But to get negative remarks is like a knife through the heart.
It has always been that way I guess.
I may be naggy and B*****...
but thats because
I am only concerned of you
and yet...
..........*sighs*
Its okay. treat me however u like.
Be it mean, or sarcastic or disrespectful.
What matters the most is my sincerity.
Dear Allah, cleanse my heart of any filth intentions and purify it with sincerity
Give me the strength to overcome negativities with the best of solutions
And ease my heartache and bless me with happiness.
For YOU are the Almighty.
Ameen.
I will just be there if you need me :D
Go and eat your medicine lah you.
Goodnites everyone.
Faizal Fernandez
11:31 PM
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