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Assalamualaikum

Hey ho!! OK i typed this today in the lab.Just killing time ah.

Thursday, 29 MArch 2007
I am really excited of events that ARE GOING to happen.
Not happened yet.But it is really a plus plus.Good for you.
I wish I was in your position.Getting back to where I belong.
Where most or all of your friends are.Where I really had friends
that I can just meet up for a small pep talk.Things would be
much easier for, you and me now.Hehe.Hoho.

WEll.When things have been going right of way for you,now,
it is my turn to be on the other end.And i really wonder if i had really
played a major part in any of this great joy,since you questioned me.
HAVE I??? I guess not.BUt...oh wells.

haha.Back to bright possible future then.Heh.
The possibilities are endless.A good long journey is awaiting.

They say go forward and not look back.
I say we look back, once in awhile, to know that you have changed.
For the better.If the worst,then change.

I guess I am not talking much.Thoughts all over.
I will just wirte it all down then transer to the blog.
(which is what i am doing right now)
There seesm to be sudden sensation in the heart.
Sensation or Pain?? Good or bad?? I am not too sure.

I miss training.I miss my dedaun members.
I just really feel lazy to talk.At all.

Oh yeah.I forgot.I really do not like it.
I do not want to go anywhere else anymore.
Unless you can find me somewhere I belong.
Which is only one place,one area.There.

The march has been a very very long month.
Seriously man.It has been one very long long month.
It seems like it has already been two months.
Well.WEll.The first month over.WELl not because of that.
But for that part.It has been quite a haste although at the
same time, a drag.

I just noticed that I am really a busy busy person.
And i just miss some people.I wanna go x-bo-xing man.
Well,I guess I am lucky I was not with that someone.
If not, I guess...aqi, need i mention more??haha hoho.
Thanks aqi.Heh.Its really nice when someone mentions
your name or write about you.Wakaka.Great minds think alike.

Assalamualaikum

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Faizal Fernandez
11:04 PM
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If i DUn MiNd, y0U dUn MiNd

Assalamualaikum

Hey yo. Ok. Its amazing how people change so much. Not mentioning any time period.
People change. Long term. But I am really amazed with those who really changed so fast.
Within a short period of time. Hoho. They are so fluctuating. So random. They may be good or bad. Depending on each different situation. I am not judging. Just sharing my thoughts. So random.

It is also amazing how some people turned out different from what they claim to be.
That can only conclude that they do not really know themselves, or they are just pure hypocrites or liars that are full of insincerity.
Maybe you are who you really are but you are just trying to be someone else.
That is what you called acting.LOL. Imitations of who you want to be.
Be who you really are. DO not act.Change and Become.
Before you change others or the world.You have to first change yourself.

I wonder if I had packed enough after I am gone.
I still think that I have not helped enough in this world.
I have already made points to help as many people in my life
As I possibly can. And so far it has been good. But not good enough.
I want to help the poor people. Those who need some things that
You do not need to swipe your credit with.

I really think I should get a job man.I miss being hardworking.
At some points of time in my life . I would really have that
Burning passion to just work so hard to earn as much as I possibly
Can ignoring the pain or the tiredness and just sacrifice my own
Personal time so that I can enjoy alittle more or less later and
Spend the time and cash with my loved ones.

Sometimes.Some people can be extremely nice.And other times.
They can be extremely horrible. A fine example.
All the way from the other end to the other end. Hah. Hmmm.
I had always made the effort to you know…have everything in moderation.
Always making that as a policy in my life. Heh.

Well well. RAnDOM-NESS!!

Assalamualaikum

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Faizal Fernandez
11:06 PM
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SpAsMiC AttAcK

Assalamualaikum

Today was a better day.Much better.WEe.
I went crazy.Maybe because work was ok.
The doctor was quite satisfied.A pathetice smile.
A smile still.So it was good enough.

I went crazy and began walking funny.
Slanting my body sideways and all.
Jumping out of spasmatic attacks.
Avoiding heavy traffic.People.
they are so incosiderate know.

I am feeling better.LOL.Not much.
That's that i guesss. I should not sleep.
Not that early i guess.Everytime.
I sleep early.I will feel damn shacked
during the day.So no more early nights.
HOHo.

BUhh...

good bye everyone.

Assalamualaikum

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Faizal Fernandez
9:37 PM
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kEttLe B0iLiNg

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Faizal Fernandez
9:46 PM
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i L0VE AmMoNiA!

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Heys!! today is a good day!! I dunnoe why.Slept late ytd.
So i still dunnoe y today was a good day. Alhamdullilah.
THe doctor bought us breakfast just like he promised.
Because of his dunnoe what thing.Good records or smtg.
SO i just enhoyed breakfast.LoL.ERm i was busy and busy.

Anw! I Love the smell of ammonia.It hurts my throat!!
It sucks man.When u know that ur sick and still have
that small bit of itch in ur throat.To make it better.have
that pee-smelling substance breathed in through ur
nose down the throat into the oesaphagus and into ur
deep lungs.Damn that feels good.Makes your phlegm
even thicker and make it feel at that point of time when
it really hurts and sores before u get a high fever.

So yah now im just waiting for 1030pm for a show.
Erm im gona be so damn sleepy tmr lah.HOHO.
And the cough still has not disappear.BUmmer man.

Assalamualaikum

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Faizal Fernandez
9:26 PM
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ThErE iS a fiNe LiNe BetWeEn...

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Heys.Tired lah.Aha.Erm ok well well lets see.
Lets start with the most recent that happened today.
Tersebut Al Kisah. Ada satu hamba Allah nie.BUjang.
Haha! Tak cukup dapat satu nenek angkat. Memang.
Dahtu! Dia angkat lagi satu atuk pulak dekat geylang.
Al Kisah.

Alah i really do not know what to say about some people.
They make promises and do not keep it uh.
If its like once or twice or even thrice.I still think ok uh.
But its been more like about 10 times maybe?Since like...
2 3 years ago?? Now i think i know why there were such
misunderstanding or frustation between that person.

LoL.I Was late for a certain official event in school.
Not at fault.Was cool about it.Who cares.And took my time.
And reached there.And saw this girl whom i dint recognize.
LOL.I was blur and was thinking as I approached her.
HAHA! So it was the nurse.Surprise surprise! FInally! She
decided to show up for something the very least important.
So i just tapped her on the shoulder.Maybe a hard one maybe?
Apparently she suddenly went bubbly ah.Shes like that.
She does not really connect with the rest.And its like what man.
Make it so obvious also until people say that and this and all.
Nurse.Nurse.I dunnoe what to say man.Disappointing.As always.
Hah.Suke hati kaulah nak.Hehe and goodluck with you and ehem.

I realised after today.That im meant to do good things.
I am capable to do so.That is what I do best.Maybe not best.But well.
But i realised that i am still not pure enough.Heart i mean.
I mean maybe im not sincere and not have the honest intentions.
LOL.I know im not like that.

hah and oh yah!! I almost forgot lah.I look at somebody ah.
Jialat man.Spend like so much in one single transaction.
I am the one who is so stressed and worried man.Diao.
Nice nice dress? shirt? Whatever you call it? Wee

Assalamualaikum

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Faizal Fernandez
11:47 PM
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rEst WeLL!!

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Heys!Today is a good well rest and recovery day.woaaa.
I had almost like 12 hours of sleep since 7+pom ytd nite.
And after granny became a bugger and woke me up finally.
I woke up and prayed and then tried to fill the stomach with
some food as i did not really have anything to eat the whole day.
So after about 2 hours plus of waiting.Got what i needed and paid.A
Then i left and iwas feeling abit better.Well after such rest.heh.
Erm then finally ate smtg and then just sat ard and waited.
Granny bugged again to go as early as possible.BUt i delayed.
Was so drowsy during the lecture.Due to the meds and usual2.
So went reached back at at granny's,I slept again for abt an hr.
hah.Have to wake up early tomoro again.So shack.Darn it.

Orh! Anw Anw.Good luck LIONS!! To the famous people.
Do your best and make SINGAPORE proud!!

Assalamualaikum

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Faizal Fernandez
7:59 PM
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OpEn Up tHE diRty WiNdOw

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Heys! SUDDENLY ah.Suddenly i just feel so exhausted.Hmm...
Erm i love to see the cat getting bathed!! ahah.Awesomeness.
It would cry out so loud.Heh and i would be like imitating it.
Making fun and laughing at it.Hah and then i would be loving
to smell its fresh nice scent.Ho.My mom loves the cat much.
I love it too.Sometimes focusing on it can really do the trick.
Like when you are stress or something.Well well.Im a lover.
Even when there is no stress.I'd love to adore its fur and presence.
So yah man.Hehe.Suddenly so sleepy seh.

Hmm...well im sorry to hear abt that.Well its allrights lah eh.
I think they must have really lost it to do something like that.
Older as it seems does not mean they are more matured.Hmm.
Definitely still needs more experience in doing the business.
Well i guess they are closing down or passing it cos they know
that they have failed to do what they had to do to you.LOL!
Erm...just hang in there aites.Who knows.There will be better.
I might even help you to look for better ones.AHah.Thats nice.
LOL.IN the mean time.Try not to use so much of the dough k.
PLus your BILLS.Hmm settle all the other needs first.
Drink more water lah ok.
See ya soon!

Assalamualaikum

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Faizal Fernandez
6:05 PM
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piCk ME uP

Assalamualaikum
HELLO!!!!!!!
One word.BUSY!
SO much for rest that sunday.LOL.Had a nice dinner.

I dunnoe whether its hard or not.I thought again.Maybe...
Just maybe..im not cut out for all that.Hmm...but i want it.
Well well.

Busy at it seems.The friend was having a hard time.Did nothing.
Nothing much.It just feels hard not being able to help.
Well the least of it,i tried to think about it in the midst of exhaustion.
But im sure ur fine now.Still strong.SMILE!!!

Till later.

Isn't it time that someone saved you??
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Assalamualaikum

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Faizal Fernandez
10:55 AM
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